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The intent of this blog is to form an interactive community where parents of dead babies can come together and swap information, stories, tears, memories and encouragement. This is designed to be a neutral place. We are not religious nor are we anti-religious. Come as you are. You can sign the guest book, add your baby(ies) to the baby name memory list, review books on infant death, add warnings about movies and books that contain a dead baby, add your blog to our directory or a number of other things. Don't hesitate to contact us if you have any questions or would like to see something added to this blog. Rule One: be kind to each other. We're all in this together. We all suffer and miss our babies madly.

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Thursday, July 9, 2009

Guest Book

Sign our guest book!!

You can leave your foot print by using the comment section below.

Feel free to leave info about who you are and if you have a dead baby blog (which you may also add to our directory).

31 comments:

Heather said...

I have a dead baby blog at http://mystolenlight.blogspot.com where I work through my grief for my son Logan who was stillborn on January 24, 2009. I am also a SAHM to a toddler daughter.

Mary said...

I have a blog at www.missinglukas.blogspot.com where I am trying to deal my loss. It is a hard journey but it is my journey.

Lisa said...

I have a blog at www.remembertessa.com. My daughter, Tessa, was born on 1/26/09 and died on 2/7/09, only 12 days old. I am also a SAHM to a daughter who is almost 6 and another daughter who is almost 4. They both miss their little sister so much!!

Karen said...

Our baby boy George Patrick Andrew was born sleeping on May 19, 2009. He was full-term and his heart stopped beating while I was in labour. He is terribly missed by his parents, three big brothers, and big sister. I blog at www.busyhandsbc.blogspot.com

Anonymous said...

Our son Noam Samuel was still born on January 5, 2009. I also had a miscarriage in early August. People keep telling me to be strong, and I just want to hit them. I have always been a tough determined woman, but this has bested me. I feel broken.

It seems like so many women take comfort in god. They call their babies Angels and know that they are in a better place. I do not have that belief. I would love to find a woman who is dealing with this without religion.

I love the title Dead Baby Club:)
Laughter is the only thing keeping me sane.

Kate Levey

Kim W said...

Jessica Lee Wolf ~ 10/15/85 - 1/11/86. Darling baby girl. I can still remember how she felt to hold & I still think of her, at the very least in some fleeting thought, every day.

Jan said...

I have a daughter Carley. I was only 18wks along. I suffered from PROM (premature rupture of membrane) I wasn't able to give birth to her so they had to preform a D&E on Nov. 20, 2009. Her twin went to heaven in Sept. 2009 at 8wks and 2days. I also had a miscarriage in July 08 my baby was 9 1/2wks. My blog is myangelsinheaven.blogspot.com

Anonymous said...

I lost my baby boy at 5 1/2 months along on 02/22/2010. Even tough it was my husband's and my choice to stop the pregnancy, given the outcome and diagnosis of our baby after several testings, we felt it was the only choice WE could make out of love for our little one. This was a very much wanted pregnancy and baby. I have an 11 year old and was looking forward to having another baby and giving my son the sibling he had desired for so long. Now that I re-married on 10/04/2008, I was excited to add a little one to the family. My husband has 3 daughters from his previous marriage but they are all older so he was looking foward to this baby. This was an exciting time for all of us. Ofcourse, after 3 daughters, besides a healthy baby you know he wanted a boy, even though he said he didn't care what the baby would be. After all the planning and dreaming, our world would change forever on 02/10/2010 when the testing revealed a poor outcome for our baby. I did research. I read and read and afer realizing the uncertainty of his health and knowing he would suffer one way or the other, I made the heart breaking choice to end the pregnancy. I loved my baby so much, I couldn't see him suffer. You know, not knowing a diagnosis makes all the difference. Had I not been introduced to the world of genetic testing, I would've just not known and delt with whatever came my way after giving birth to him. But knowing his condition......I just couldnt. I think about him everyday and I imagine I will forever. I hurt, I cry, I have mixed feelings about science and cristianity, being a cristian this was a very hard decision, I feel as if I can't breath at times when I think of my baby and our choice. The only thing that really comforts me is that God knows my heart and he knows my reasons. Not that he approves, but he knows me. Also, I was able to see my baby boy and hold him. The staff was incredibly kind. They let us have him with us until we were ready. We were never ready to given him up but we knew we had too. After several hours with him and taking our pictures, we handed him over to my nurse. She gently took him and said "come with me little angel." Those words comfort me a lot. She validated him and our loss. I felt a heaviness in my heart and a weakness that took over my body the day we left the hospital. I felt my heart rip out of my chest when we drove away and as I looked up to the floor where I knew he would be at. I could barely talk, I felt defeted, and I felt my soul was so lost. I wanted my baby so bad. I was in a world of sadness. A sadness, I never knew I could feel. I ask God and my baby to forgive everyday. But my choice was the one choice I felt was best for my baby. Thats what we do as parents, make choices we feel are best for our children. I feel a parent that decides to continue a pregnancy knowing the outcome is also very brave. That's the choice they feels is best for them and the're baby. I think about him everyday, constantly. I love him. My arms ache for him. I talk about him, he was mine and he will always be in our hearts. I am little by little overcoming this loss but I know that, even though I move on, I will always carry him with me. I will always ache for him. Maybe not as intense as the day I gave birth to him or as now, but I know I will. To anyone choosing to make this awful choice, there is a website called WWW.ahearbreakingchoice.com that helped me alot. Also, if you inially decide to have a baby with out any genetic testing done because you rather deal with whatever comes your way, don't let fear or anyone influence you to have it done. To My Loving Baby Boy Angel Luis.....We love you and miss you so much. And your bid brother says...." I miss you, I wish you could have been with us so I could show you how to wrestle".

Anonymous said...

My Little boy Hiwahiwa 'Anela Kia'i Lolena Kaui-Samson was still born on 7/7/2010. I never knew I was pregnant. I just thought I was stressed out with what was going on with my son's father and I. I have a 10 year old daughter and a 8 year old son. I wish I was not going to be telling them alone what happened. They have always wanted me to have another baby. I still sit awake at night and try to figure out what I did wrong. But the answer's will never come to me. To all the mothers and there families before me and after me... My prayers are with all of you for this path we are on is life changing...

ltobosa85 said...

Our little angel Ratu Eleki Lathanael He'olinoaloha Tobosa-Mocelutu went on his very first trip on July 13, 2010...that trip to join the rest of the angels in Heaven. :-) In time I will be continuing my baby blog that I started when I found out I was pregnant. I was so excited to be a mommy for the first time that I wanted to share it with the world. Nothing has changed. I still want to show you off to the world. :-) Love you Eleki!

Anonymous said...

Marcus Oren Brown was born 11/10/08. He was born with a birth defect that neither his doctors nor us, his parents, new about. He faught for a month and five days untill his little body couldn't fight anymore. his name means warrior, and thats exactly what he was. our little fighter. I fear I will never be able to accept his death. I feel like I should have been a warrior for him. I should have nagged the doctors for more tests, ultrasounds, anything. I knew something was wrong, I felt it in my gut. "Thats Normal," is all I kept hearing from my Doctor, and I thought it better to reassure my self in those words than to actually belive something was wrong wit my darling baby. I hope to someday forgive my self.I love you for ever my little fighter Mo'!

Zachery's mommy said...

I am Michelle, I just started to blog about my son Zachery, who was born with Down Syndrome and 3 CHD's. He passed away 9 days shy of his 2nd birthday in 2006. I am finally strong enough to start blogging about all of my feelings about losing him.http://soldiergirl-lifeonachain.blogspot.com/

Angie said...

My son, Aiden Kenneth, was stillborn on 8.13.2010 at 37 weeks. I blog about my life after Aiden at...
http://expectationsrevised.blogspot.com/

LetterstoClaire said...

I have a website for my daughter, Claire, at www.letterstoclaire.com She was born premature at 23 weeks due to cervical incompetence. I am constantly finding new websites, resources, communities and friends who are a part of this community and have been irreplaceable in helping me deal with my grief.

The Nel"SONS" said...

My sweet son Calder was born sleeping on Valentine's day. I found out on Feb. 7th that he had severe IUGR and his kidneys were failing. I was sent home to wait. My som did not have a heartbeat when I saw the dr on the 14th. I was induced that day. Calder was 22 weeks along. He had quit growing at 17 weeks. My heart is crushed.

Londyn

Jan said...

Hello I would like to add my children to your calander.

July 2, 2008 Angel Smith 9 1/2 weeks

September 24, 2009: Baby Angel Twin 8 1/2 weeks

Carley Noel Smith: November 20, 2009 I carried her to 20 weeks after her twin passed away in September. There due date should have been April 22, 2010.

After I loss Carley in Feb. 2010 I was diagnosis with a blood clot that was the length of my entire leg and was also told I could not ever have a biological child. It has been very difficult for me this last year but I know I have many Angels in Heaven looking over me.

www.angelsinheaven.blogspot.com

Becky said...

Liam Maximilian
dob and death- Jan. 3rd, 2011
http://fortheloveofbabyliam.blogspot.com/

Liam died just after having fetal surgery to correct his spina bifida. I was 25 weeks+6 days along with him when we had the surgery, he had to be delivered because his heart stopped and the NICU and cardiac team tried to resuscitate him but were unable to. He is forever missed
Becky

Mrs Dangerous said...

*new*
Parker William
September 21-23, 2009
mrsdangerous302.blogspot.com

I blog about everything, housework, cooking, losing my angel, our rainbow baby. I find it hard for me to dwell on the loss of Parker, so i blog about whatever comes to mind that day when i sit down at the computer. I find strength in talking to other parents that have suffered the tremendous loss we have.

Anonymous said...

Lost our sweet baby angel October 9, 2008. The Moody's

Sarah said...

I blog at

http://shebringsjoy.blogspot.com/

about my daughter, diagnosed with Limb Body Wall Complex. We chose to carry her to term, and she lived for almost 2 hours after birth.

Her name is Beatrix Elizabeth, and her first birthday will be on December 13th, 2011.

Thank you for posting blogs together. I find a lot of comfort reading about other people's losses.

Anonymous said...

Stella Nikole 7.15.11 lost at 37wks1day true knot

@erinhiscocks said...

I never signed up for The Dead Baby Club, yet here I am.

@erinhiscocks
Mother to River Angel Marshall - April 8, 2012

Anonymous said...

my wife and i lost our baby boy alexander when he was one month old.he was born with 12fingers 2 extra pinkies.it has been 3 years and we both still find it hard.god took our boy but 1and ahalf years ago he gave us a baby girl.we have three beautiful girls.and are trying for a boy.

Anonymous said...

My husband and I met and said goodbye to our perfect baby boy Niko on June 4, 2012. He passed away on June 2 due to an umbilical cord accident. I think of him everyday I wake up and when I go to sleep.

He was 8 weeks early. Now I'm confronted by people that don't know we lost him and think I'm just hanging out at home with a perfect new bundle... Instead I have a box that contains his ashes.

Jessica said...

I have contemplated starting a blog for a while. I think that may be one of my goals this winter. I lost my son Noah on September 20, 2010 due to renal issues. At the 20 week on ultrasound on July 13, 2010 my husband I thought we were finding out the sex of our baby only to be told our child would not survive after child birth. It was my first pregnancy and up until that point everything had been normal. Some difficult decisions to make but when push came to shove we wanted that baby and planned for it. So the decision was made to continue the pregnancy. We could not find out the sex of our baby because I had NO amniotic fluid, none! I think my husband was resentful of me from that day forward. He would not give me any input on the decision but said he would support me in whatever decision I made. Three weeks later he was having an affair with a woman from work because “everything at home was too difficult to deal with.” I’m an intelligent woman and figured it out pretty quickly. I kicked him out of the house on a Saturday morning and by Sunday night I was at the hospital in labor at 30 weeks. There was no reason I couldn’t have carried to full term but the stress sent me into labor. My precisious son Noah (I refused to use his middle or last name since they are the same as his father’s) was born less than 24 hours later. He survived for 61 minutes. I filed for divorce one week later. I have an incredibly supportive family and wonderful friends but it’s still not the same as having a partner to process the loss with. I’m one month away from the 2 year anniversary. I can across this site tonight as I was looking for some new ways to memorialize my son. I still attend counseling weekly. I have attended a support group as well as spoken in front a panel of health care professionals about my loss. I have done many of the suggested ways to grieve. Time does help but you don’t get to a better place with out doing the work and grieving. It still hurts every day but you learn how to deal with the pain and go on. Needless to say I do not have any more children since I’m divorced and not the most trusting of men (currently).

Catherine said...

I just wanted to leave a comment to say how much I love this website. It is so helpful.

I'm new to the BL and the blogging community. I started blogging so I could talk about my son who was stillborn on 7/19/2012, and to meet other BL parents.

My blog is:
http://twinkleoflight.blogspot.com/

2ron2flipmom said...

I found this site from a bloggers link and I enjoyed reading your page. Im a new blogger and love reading people's story about parents who almost has the same experience. It help me fill a hole in my heart and that I am not alone... Helps me heal

I started blogging to remember my daughter Alanna who was born 7/19/2012 and died on the same day after 2 hours.

still waorking on my blog: http://foreverbabyalanna.blogspot.ca/

Samantha said...

I have a blog, www.phoenixfloating.blogspot.com, where i am slowely working through the grief process
My baby Joaquim died From Infant leukemia at 2 months of age

Nazia said...

I wish I had found this site a year ago, but I guess I wasn't ready to look for it yet. Thank you for all the information and hard work you all have put into this to help others.

I just started blogging about my newborn son who passed away 1/26/12 at: https://thecrabbycupcake.wordpress.com/

Joy&Brian said...

I'm Joy, I ran into this site by accident and the name of course caught my attention. We recently lost our baby girl on May 17th and it's the hardest thing I've ever been through. I was 5 months 2 days and she was born premature (obviously)But we never got any answers, no one can tell us why we lost her, which has made it even harder. I am excited to find this "place" and plan to look around. It has given me a little bit of hope knowing that there are so many others that understand and are feeling this loss at the same time we are.

Mike & Emily said...

On September 16, my wife Emily and I lost our twin boys, Isaac and Samuel. She was at 21 weeks when the "routine" ultrasound revealed no heartbeats. The cords had become tangled, and they had also wrapped around each baby's throat.

Thank you for creating an outlet for us to share our story, as well as those who also grieve for the same circumstance. I wish for nothing but peace for all of you.